Monday

19.9.1977

Priya Akhilji,

Aap ka 8 taareekh ka likha hua khath mujhe mila. Padkar bahut khushi hui. Dil ko tassalli mili. Lekin Akhilji aapke dilki baatein jaankar mujhe khudh hii sharmindagi mehsoos hone lagi hai. Aap kitni samajhdhar hai, kitni achi hai. Duniya ke utaar chadav ke baare mein aap kitna sukshma vichar rakhti hai. Aap ne mujh jaisi insaan ki baaton ka zara sa bhi bura na maankar mere dil ki baat jaan ne ki icha prakat ki hai. Sach maaniye Akhilji meine pichla khath aapko likha sahi lekin aap ka khath paane tak mere dil mein ek toofaan sa utha tha. Mein apne aapko aparadhi samajhne laga tha. Zameen par rehte hue bhi meine aasmaan ko choone ki koshish ki thi. Mein apni khud ki haisiyat bhool gaya tha. Baat yeh hai Akhilji ki mein-----Aap se pyar karta hoon. Woh bhi foreign aane se pehlese hi. Lekin meri paristhithiyaan, dharm, samaj aap se bilkul alag tha isliye mein India mein rehte hue janm bhar aap se kabhi bhi shayad yeh baat nahin batha saktha tha. Aur na hi aaj batane wala tha, lekin aap ki Frank baatein jaankar meine socha ki aap sachmuch mujhse naaraaz nahin hogi. Kyunki aapne likha tha “Perhaps I will be able to understand you”. Waise meine bhi socha ki aap itna zaroor janthi hogi ki kisi ko kisi se pyar hona koi apraadh ya gunah tho hai nahin. Lekin mein yeh bhool gaya tha ki kisi se pyar karne ke liye kum se kum apni haisiyat tho honi chaahiye. Aur mein apni haisiyat vakai bhool gaya tha. Waise duniya mein kai log aisa pyar karte honge, lekin zaroori nahin ki unko unka pyar miltha hi hoga. Mein abhagene kyun yeh soch rakha tha. Aap sachmuch mujhe iss gusthaki ke liye kshama kijiye Akhilji. Bhagwan ke liye mujhse kabhi nafrat na kijiye. Mere dil mein aap ke liye bahut izzat hai, ek pavitra bhavna hai. Aur han aap apne ghar ke kisi bhi aadmi se yeh nahin batana, varna Masterji mujhpar bahut naaraz hongue. Woh sochengue iss ladke ko hamne hamdardi di aur isne hamari hamdardi ka yeh matlab nikala? Kripaya aap nahin bataye. Aasha karta hoon aap mere shabdon ke liye zaroor kshama karogi aur iss khatka jawab bhi degi. Baaki sab kushal mangal hai. Gopal ko bhi aathe hi achi naukri mil gayi hai. Ab Anita koi kaam vagairah nahin karti, sirf hum logon ke liye khana banathi hai aur bahut sukhi baiti hai. Shayad aaj hi aapko khath likhne wali. Gopal bhi bahut khush baita hai.

Aap ke gharwalon ko hamari taraf se saprem namaskar kahiyega. Aur aap ko bhi hamari taraf se kind regards.

Nothing more to add further. Only awaiting for your reply very anxiously. Hope you will keep continue to write letters very frequently. Keeping a great desire in my mind that you will never hate me but will try to understand me.

Yours unfortunate Govind.

Ek baat likhna tho mein bhool hi gaya hoon. Jiske liye aap ne bahut chinta vyakth ki hai, aap ke pichle khath aakhri sentence ke liye jismein likha tha: “Tumein mera pyar” yaane ki “I love you” jo mein abhi tak padtha hi rehta hoon. Jiske liye abhi bhi mein aap ko dhanyavad de raha hoon.

Doosri baat yeh hai ki apne gopal ke through bheje hue kele mile jo mujhe duniya ki sabhi cheezon se meethe lage.